Fetching for a Future is Harder Than it Looks

    Lately I've been really lazy, and let me tell you it is NOT fun. I've been sucked into the powerful vortex otherwise known as "reality shows". I find myself watching for hours and hours on end. Seeing all these people not sitting on their couch watching television, but actually leaving their house and working, running errands, or taking up a class ... just doing SOMETHING! It makes me a little depressed, because I think to myself "am I really just watching these people live their lives instead of living my own life!?"

    
    If you're lost let me take you to the beginning. So back in April I was still in college studying Nursing. I thought that was what I wanted to do, but after careful thinking I decided that it wasn't for me. I was about to have a nervous breakdown because I didn't know what I was going to do with my life. But then it hit me! MAKE-UP ARTIST! DUH! 

  
    So the plan was: leave college, go to school for cosmetology, start getting gigs here and there, build up my client list, and BAM! instant PRO makeup artist. I did some research and school was extremely expensive. THAT'S  IT  DREAM  OVER! I was so depressed that I started bumming around my house. I was constantly reminded that I could get a job. So there I was sunken on my couch. I know I could be doing better things, but by staying up all night, I pretty much slept all day. Sometimes until 4pm. So when I got up, theres was nothing left to do, and that cycle destroyed my biological clock.

    
    But after a month or so there was a ray of light. I was able to get enough money for classes. It's a three week course and I couldn't be more excited! Only thing is it starts in November. It's a long wait from now but I'm just glad it's finally happening. I'm starting to get back into that potato couch mode, but this time I'm trying everything in my power to make sure I break that old sleep cycle. That way I can do something to make my free time worthwhile. Plus I'm trying so hard to stay away from the T.V. and it's "reality shows". They won't get me this time! HAHA!

I've Tried Breathing and Nothing Seems to Work!

    Guys . . . uuugghh! I've never been good with guys. It hasn't been until recently that guys started to show interest in me. I feel like I just stumbled upon being (somewhat) pretty and now I don't know what to do with it. Theres a million things that go through my mind when I'm beginning to show interest in someone. I don't want to fall for the wrong guy, is he the right guy? Will my family like him? Will we last? Then I start to like him and yet there are things that I don't like about him. The negative tends to overpower the positive, and then my overthinking just confuses me! It overwhelms me sometimes. RAWR. Sometimes its too much, and I just want to crawl right back into my little ugly shell and wait for the guy to leave. . . I just can't help it. I'm an over-thinker. Why must I overthink? I just want someone to walk right up and say "Hi. We're meant for each other." LOL wouldn't that be nice. . . and a little creepy. I know I just have to wait. Jehovah will know when it's the right time for me. Until then I'll just go about my life and maybe soon he'll make an appearance :)

Here Comes the Bride

    I absolutely LOVE weddings. I'm such a sucker when it comes to talking about plans, colors, and venues. I just can't help myself. Funny thing is I don't even know what I would want my own wedding to have. I was able to see one of my friends get married the other day. We're not the closest of friends, but I was really happy to be there and to see how happy he was. Then a few days later my neighbors got married. They are just the cutest thing! I'm really happy that everyone else is happy! My heart is really OVERJOYED for all of those lovebirds!

*    *    OAWESOME TRANSITION INTO SECOND HALF OF THE POST    *     *

    I feel like everyone is all about the bride and groom from the day a wedding is mentioned to the moment the wedding is over. Then no one seems to talk as much about it, and it makes sense. I just wish it wasn't like that. When I was younger I never really thought of what life would be like after the wedding. But that's what the wedding is for. To have a life with that person, not JUST a wedding. I think I've always thought of "I want my wedding to have this, and I want my wedding to have that!" but I should be focusing more on "I want my marriage to be like this, and I want my marriage to be like that".  I know this post is totally random but I wanted to say something about weddings.... sooo i did. LOL okay I think I'm done :) 

Put That Spoon DOWN Sista!

    When you're feeling down, yes, a bowl of ice cream can make you feel better. But why sacrifice all those extra calories? And not to mention all the sugar in it will make you crash later. I have the best pick-me-up ever! It's fat free, zero calories, and there's no crash later! IT'S MY FRIENDS!  They always know how to make me feel better. If you're ever feeling down why not put that ice cream back in the freezer and go out with some of your friends? Trust me you'll feel MUCH better. Take a look at one of our OAWESOME adventures below. 

I was on T.V. like 2 yrs ago!

Check me out @ 1:09 WOO HOO!

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Serious Investigators for Serious Crimes

Lights, Camera, DRAMA!

THIS POST IS NOT MEANT TO OFFEND ANYONE! I'VE JUST NOTICED THAT IT'S A BIG ISSUE AT THE MOMENT!
    
    Do you know what I can't stand? People who love to create drama for themselves and for others. These are normally the ones who say "I hate drama it follows me everywhere!" wait . . .  stop . . . did you see that!? You HATE drama and yet it FOLLOWS you everywhere. Really? Maybe you should stop, think for a second. Why is it that I always have drama? Then ask "do I find it?" or "does it just find me?" If you think it's the second one, most likely you're wrong. It's the first. 


Now that we've found the root of the problem, the next step is correct it. If you want a drama-free life here's a few tips that you can try.


1. If you have a problem with someone address it. Don't wait for it to boil inside of you for years and years to come. And don't say "it's not worth the confrontation" it doesn't have to be a confrontation, just use your nice words. 


2. Don't lie. That's obvious enough! 


3. If you know someone is not good for you to associate with, then don't continue to associate with them. DUH! However keep in mind that you should not be the one to determine for the world if that person is good or not. Slandering someone's name is NEVER something to be proud of. 


4. Think twice before you do something major. You need to think of how it will affect others (same applies to what you say). 

We are honored to inform you that you are ACCEPTED!

    So what is one of the biggest problems people face all over the world? Acceptance! This post is more about accepting yourself. Hating oneself has really become a horrible epidemic. I must admit I was the same. I honestly hated how shy I was and on top of that I have no supermodel body. And even though people tell me I'm beautiful inside and out I never could believe it. It wasn't until recently that I dissected the true meaning of confidence. 

    

    According to Dictionary.com confidence is "full trust, belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities". That made me think: do I fully trust myself? do I believe in myself? If I didn't believe or trust in myself then who will do it for me? I knew I needed to make a change in the way I saw myself. 

    Here's how I changed my point of view, but please note that this might not work for everyone!

1. Call your voicemail and leave yourself a message! Tell yourself positive things and be honest with yourself. If you have nothing positive in the beginning try the other steps and then come back to this one.

2. Avoid looking excessively into mirrors. I'm definitely not telling you to avoid mirrors altogether, but don't always check your reflection. I have a mirror in my room, when I walk down the sidewalk and I see a building with a reflective window I used to stare. Anywhere there was a mirror I would look just to make sure nothing was wrong. The more I looked the more flaws I would see. 

3. Realize you can do anything you set your mind to. Just use youtube! Today there are soooooo many how-to videos on youtube! If you want an opinion on new makeup looks to try, go on youtube. If you want to lose weight, go on youtube and watch inspirational results! You can even learn how-to: cook, play the guitar, dance, etc.

4. Splurge and treat yourself! You deserve to take a breather. Go buy those killer shoes you saw in the window display, release your tension and get a full body massage! Or even eat that whole chocolate bar! Once in a while it's okay to splurge on yourself.

5. Eliminate the toxins of life. It could be a bad habit. Surround yourself with positivity. Work on step-by step progression. Don't rush a change if you want it to last! Get support from family and friends. 

6. You should be feeling a little more confident by now. The final step is to make the confidence NOTICEABLE! Start with a smile. Make sure you don't leave the house until you have a huge smile on your beautiful face! :)

Bye-bye College, Hello Gorgeous!

    Okay so if your not aware of this I don't go to college anymore! I decided that it wasn't for me. Many people aren't happy with my decision, however I continue to make them aware of the simple fact that this isn't their life. It's mine! I decide what I'll be doing. Yes, they can give their opinions, and yes I will listen to what they have to say. But as I state one more time IT'S MY LIFE! (I have the biggest urge to sing the rest of Bon Jovi's song now! LOL) So I bet your wondering what I'll be doing now if I'm not going to be taking up Nursing. Well, I'm going to follow my passion and go into Makeup Artistry. Can you believe it? It's just something I have a lot of love for. I want to wake up loving my job, not going "i hate my job . . . it's only for the paycheck" I want to take pride in my work, and just enjoy my life! :)

Starting New

     Lately things have been happening and I feel like I need a new start. Why do people wait for a milestone to be reached to then want to make a change? For example waiting 'til the new year. I just don't understand since you have the power to make a change now. Like right now! 

    

    So that's exactly what I'm doing. Making a change right now! I'm going to be more honest and treat myself better. I deserve to be good to myself, and not wait for someone to come around to treat me right.

 

    Life was so much better when I was a kid. I had nothing to worry about and yet at the same time it seemed like I had the world on my shoulders! So anyways I encourage you reading this to make a change and be better to yourself :) 

Song of the moment: You Get What You Give- New Radicals

GUNS -N- ROSES

Do you know what I hate? When guys think that they've got a girl all figured out. 

Guess what? YOU DON'T. 

A girlie girl who loves doing her makeup, 

wearing heels, getting her nails done, and going shopping can also love other things.

 Like dominating in laser tag (that's right! I almost scored 20,000 points for my team in one 4 minute round!) and playing that friggin oawesome Terminator game non-stop resulting in a 5 star elite shooter badge! (BOO-YAH!) 

Then cutting people off on the go kart track until she gets into a collision slamming her knee so hard the blood stained her FAVORITE JEANS!!!! and she didn't even tear up. 

So don't stare at her like you know she's weak and don't ask her if you can carry her out because she wanted to leave the track because her knee is bleeding! AND DEFINITELY DON'T HIT ON HER WHILE SHE'S IN PAIN BECAUSE SHE WILL SLAP YOU! YOU INSENSITIVE JERK! 

But do you know the one think I love? Flowers. So if you want to get on my good side you need to buy me some roses, with some fried pickles in them dawg! :D

Dreams

We all know that cinderella song: A dream is a wish your heart makes! 

Right?  . . . yeaaa don't act like you don't know you closet Disney lover! 

Well I sat down for a little bit to actually think of what that verse of the song really means. I ended up thinking of how ( . . . and this is scary so brace yourself) people who dream of an amazing future but don't go for it end up working in the last place they would've ever thought of . . .  my dentist's front desk. 

I walk into the dentist and there is a sad-crying face behind this "smile" I get welcoming me to the office. 

I feel so bad because now I'm on my way to following my dream and she's stuck there.

So here's my tip for you reading this and yet you haven't followed your dream.

YOU DON'T WANT TO WORK FOR MY DENTIST SO GET OUT THERE AND MAKE YOU'RE DREAM A REALITY! I can't take anymore pitiful receptionists.

But if your dream is to be my dentist's receptionist then I guess you're good then :)

Oldies are the Newest Craze!

If you're into the top 40 hits kind of music you're probably those people who wait for a new song to come out so you can go straight to Frostwire to download it! Am I right!?  . . . I KNEW IT! HA! well here's something new you should try. Listen to the oldies. They always put me in a good mood :)  and it always makes me want to dance like I was in the 70's or 80's. Try Aha- Take on me. Love it <3

Annyoing People Singing

    I was in target the other day and in walks this guy with loud music playing from his cell phone. He puts it up to his ear and starts to rap along with the music. I just thought to myself "wow. really?" This isn't the first time I see this, but it definitely has been a while. It just annoys me because it's like "why must you sing so everyone can hear you? A music producer is not hiding in the kids section of Target waiting to see what new talent is walking around the corner." GOSH! 

Things my BLOGTV viewers said!

That was cornier than motherhood and apple pie- upstate


Nicky is this close to being Larry King's 12th wife-Anusol


Female logic is impossible- Anusol


Are witches real?- likesososocool


BlogTV destroys livessssss :o -Smiles2


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Reaching Out

    Today was uber fun! Hung out with one of my besties Tina and we talked about everything! We haven't spend time together in a while! Isn't it good to catch up with people!? I think everyone should try to contact at least 3 different people who they haven't spoken to in a while! Okay try it right now! Get out your phone and find 3 people who you haven't texted or called in about 2 weeks or more, and just say "hey, what's up!?" I guarantee you it'll brighten their day as well as yours :)

Check out my Tina's blog here: http://thisheartofwords.blogspot.com

Vending Machines Kill

    I was on this fun fact website and I was skimming through some of the facts, but I had to stop and analyze this one: More than ten people a year are killed by vending machines! I thought to myself "10 people each year are either really bored or really stupid" after watching these clips below I've discovered that it's both!

You can check out the fun fact site at this link: http://www.funfactz.com