Well, so much has changed. I'm not doing makeup as I was hoping to a while ago. I'm working with children now. Surprisingly I really love it. Getting used to working with kids was a bit challenging, but I feel so incredibly blessed. I keep every drawing they give me, and every hug I receive daily fills my heart up with happiness. It gets tough sometimes but it is worth every minute. Lots of my co-workers are looking forward to the summer without kids. I am too, but I know I'm really going to miss these little boogers.
I've been trying to stay positive and really focus on the good things in life. I haven't been truly happy in so long, and now I'm taking control of my life. I felt like I was on Auto-pilot. I let things slide here and there, and I haven't spoken up. I hid my feelings, and it no one's fault but my own. Now I have to work on rebuilding myself. It starts with my inner self and outer self. Happiness starts with feeling good about yourself. I started this new workout program today thats supposed to target cellulite (its my biggest problem, especially on my thighs). I'll let you know how that goes. So far its not too hard and its got me sweating, so thats a good sign.
Romance. I'm just trying to figure out that part of my life little by little. There are times where I don't feel mature enough for a relationship, and that makes me feel uncomfortable. I just need to feel ready for marriage before I get back into a relationship. I need to allow myself to grow, and at the same time I want to find the man who is going to capture my heart without a word. I used to dislike affection so much, guess I was just bitter. Now I'm different. I love showing how much I care for someone. I just wish I could find someone who would be willing to beat me to it. Someone who is the same. I want a man that can truly love me. *sigh* but... I WILL BE POSITIVE.
I'm happy that you're taking charge of your life prima :) it makes me happy to know that you're looking out for yourself first, it's a life lesson we learn as we get older as hard as it is sometimes and as weird as it sounds, we need to be a little selfish. It's a necessary evil because honestly no one else is going to do it for you.
ReplyDeleteStay positive and don't let anyone tell you that you're doing wrong or making a mistake. Don't doubt yourself. It took you time to find a career path that makes you happy and I've watched you struggle with finding it since you were in college, but look at you now, you found it. Which means you'll find everything else that makes you happy in time too, including the marriage endgame. I know exactly how you're feeling right now because I've been there done that, and came out the other side really really happy. So don't give up!
&& Lastly Awesome Job with the workout, lord knows we all need to hit the gym lol let me know how it works out for you. If you ever wanna go to the Gym together one of these summer days I am a member at Planet Fitness near co-op city, I can pick you up and we can go. The Big part of keeping up with those routines is having people willing to workout with you, not that I'd know much about that since your cousin is absolutely terrible with keeping up with them -_- lol
Xoxo